Ardy 'Blast Beat' Anselmo

Standing In The Middle Of The Plains....

2010-08-19T14:20:00.000+08:00

Anyone out there......? Anyone? Hello? Anyone there.....? Any....one....? Haiz......

Ramadhan!

2010-08-10T19:47:00.000+08:00

I need loads of PATIENCE during Ramadhan. I pray that Allah helps me through to being a better person.

2/1...Awesome People!

2010-08-04T15:51:00.001+08:00

Farah,
Shanmu,
Qistina,
Huda,
Fazli,
Sufi,
Dzul,
Amirul,
Izam,
Sudha,
Charlton,
& the rest of 2/1.

I will always remember you people, the 3 days, 2 nights & all the things we went through together. I may have shouted & reprimand you but trust me, all that was for you to be a better individual. All in regards to the best of your interest.

You make my 3 days, 2 nights a memorable one!

I miss you & I love you people!

FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!FRAP!

2/1 IS THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!

Dyeth

2010-07-25T01:23:00.000+08:00

Being in a band is tough especially when you're like me. The thing about me is, I joke around too much with the guys til' they come to a point they get pissed off, now that's the fucked up thing about me. The rest? Well, i know they're serious enough but maybe I just need to be reassured because I've played in multiple bands and they come to a point where no signs of seriousness is showed, that's where I quit or get myself kicked out.

Dyeth is an awesome band, the most awesome I've ever been in. The thing is, we all wanted to record our next original & all agreed to go with producer Roland 'asshole' Lim (I think that's his name). I don't agree but like they say, majority rules but it doesn't work that way for me. I was really pissed off besides agreeing to their choice of producer, for a month no updates from Qhai, Syafiq or Kayyum. Thats's where I'm really pissed, we've been talking about it for months and nothing's happening...i was like ..WHAT THE FUCK?!

Earlier on I was told that their choice of producer was fuckin' busy, i came to think..."so are we gonna do nothing but jam all the fucking weekends off and wait for that dude to give us the green?", there are other studios that we can go to so why wait? I mean I don't have much time left on my hands. A mountain load of camps are coming my way and if they keep on delaying the recording, I'll be in NS. It'll be so damn hard...i have friends and family to attend to the day i book out, recording takes a whole fucking day.

Now as far as I'm concerned, you pissed me off, I piss you off , that really ain't the thing to do but hey, when you're angry, do you give a fuck? I sure as hell don't but you tend to think of it when you've cooled down. What I did was stupid but it's just a minor argument between me,Qhai and Syafiq. Kayyum and Hafiz always goes with the flow. I'd rather have them voice out but I guess, too much or too many voicing out ain't good either because they're afraid that things might not actually work out.

I apologized but still like me, they're in no mood to argue. So it's the next jamming session that we will be discussing about this. I was kinda insensitive to Syafiq because I just realized he lost a major league for Dyeth, to you bro, I'm deeply sorry, if only i have thought about it before lashing out. Again, no one is perfect, I may be awesome on the drums but as a person, I have a lot to learn.

Agony

2010-07-22T11:25:00.001+08:00

My days are numbered, no doubt. I've been wandering aimlessly here & there searchin' for answers to my fuckin' questions but seems to me the questions may be the answers though it doesn't make any sense. My leg will keep on walking wherever my will takes me and I'm already too tired of walking. I wanna come to a halt just to breathe even if it's for a brief moment. My leg can't take it anymore, it's too sore but my heart is too numb to feel all of this but not my mind.

Will, my will to keep on walking is strong and tough but again, my will doesn't know anything else. My will doesn't feel the pain that my mind does, to soldier on, I really need to take a breather. It's like I'm trappin' water for more than an hour, it's takin' a toll on my fuckin' lungs. I've walked all my life and to this very day, my feet bleeds but my will...if only it understands. I can't seem to find what I'm lookin' for, I've searched everywhere and done everything humanly possible for once I've grabbed hold of the answer, I'll do everything humanly possible to keep it close to me.

I'm in search of knowledge, truth, agony, love, life, the rights, subtlety, ignominy & prevalence but it is said :

" Those who seek Knowledge and its affiliation shall be burden with life's greatest ordeal, Agony.

It's the murder of self."

No Mood

2010-07-20T20:35:00.000+08:00

Lately, I ain't in the mood for anything....seriously not even drumming. Feelin' pretty down

Awesome Camp But Damn!

2010-07-18T00:51:00.001+08:00

Being a Camp Instructor sure is quite tough...loads of stuffs you gotta learn & patience always helps. The camp was fun but too bad no pictures were taken, I sure would love to see myself with the harness on and belaying my campers. Some were really terrified of heights like I do, some wanted to gave up halfway through the course but I told them to soldier on...all in all,it's an awesome experience and an awesome camp!

Next camp - 28th, 29th and 30th July at Jalan Bahtera Adventure Centre or in short, JBAC.

Now, i really have to meet up with Aike McCallister aka Haiqal. I miss him and we have not met for 2 bloody weeks so next week dude, I promise to meet up with you alright bro, of course with the rest as well since next week is Syafiq's last weekend before his enlistment date which falls on my last day of my next camp.

Oh yeah...do come down to Bukit Panjang Plaza on 24th July, my band will be performing as well as other bands and not only we have bands but there'll be rap performances,dance and some other shit...so come down and support your local act!

Ajra....

2010-07-15T12:58:00.000+08:00

No one knows, just what has become of you
Shattered doll,so innocent, and delicate,
To Obstinate to let go
Broken down, hurt again,
It never ends,
Frightened and trembling
Your eyes encircled in black again
I can’t believe that your still with him

Hiding within, again,
Can you pick yourself up again?
It’s just too difficult,
And arduous to let go
No more pain, take control,
The world will see that you've had enough

For how long will you try?
How long until you walk away?
Your façade can’t disguise,
The fact that you’re in misery...

Then again, life's like that or women's heart are like that which is of a complicated & complex matter for guys to understand and maybe even appreciate. Not close to you but enough to see & understand what's going on & to see,hear & read about it just leaves me in a rage but it's about you. Life's is what you make it and you only have one chance to make it right, play your cards right, love isn't really a grand thing Ajra but living life is.

No matter what you think or even if you know what needs to be done,there's nothing you can do about it for love has got you stricken or shall I say, chained to the very ground. Again, I'm no one to tell you this but since I'm not inhumane, I think it's the least i can do. It's your heart that got you into this, I understand that women think with their hearts no matter what the mind says, the heart always wins or maybe in your case, he's just one hell of a drama queen because he just don't have the brains nor the guts to face reality without you. Maybe for him, it's not love..it's the idea of having you since he's used to having you around therefore can't make do without you.

He tells you it's love but if it really is, Love never leaves you scarred physically.Then again, I'm no one but like I said, I'm not inhumane.Hope you're not offended.

I'm Against This!

2010-07-14T17:31:00.000+08:00

This should stop!

Argh! Spain Won...

2010-07-12T14:44:00.000+08:00

Catched the World Cup Finals at Tampines' McDonalds with Azhar & Zul.

Spain won the world cup in the finals against Netherlands. I'm not a fan of either one but i supported Netherlands because Azhar supported Spain & lo & behold! Spain won the World Cup..AIYA!

Like they say..Viva La Espana!

Fuck That!

History..Indestructible...

2010-07-06T16:45:00.000+08:00

There's nothing but to learn from every little thing in life. Nothing in life in unplanned. Everything is but we don't know about it instead we walk through the plan and make mistakes along the way..some minor mistakes and some grave mistakes.

Bottom line is we learn and never stop learning.

I learned alot from being with these people, no longer in touch with them even so i appreciate them and the lessons they impart onto me:

Muhd.Syahidin

Sudurul Iman

Muhd. Rashid

Lisa

Kristina

Khairunnisa bte Mohd Azman (Nisa Pataki)

Azri

Affandi

Fahzalad

Aidil

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2010-06-20T00:45:00.000+08:00

I know I've been gone for so long & after so long,I popped up ain't really an ideal thing for you i guess.You see, I ain't how it is for you..not sure you like it or maybe you wish you can wish me away. I understand that it's kinda ridiculous for me to come back and tell you how much i love you & the only thing thats running through your head,I guess is "He's gotta be joking!".

I know it is very fuckin' weird but trust me that I only have the best intentions. I know no matter what i say or said can really make you trust me or guys for that matter & I know no matter how hard i try or tried to prove to you I'm every bit different will be of no difference. I can say a whole lot of shit pertaining to my love & sincerity but still I guess all I'm doing is makin' a fool outta myself.

That day that we met up, that's the best day of my life for the past few years. Even though it was only a very short train ride, to me that's my best ever train ride. The hug? That's the best hug I've ever felt & all of this is all down to one reason only & that's you.

To be honest, I'm seriously lost, it's like i ain't sure at the end of the day I'm gonna win your heart. This post about you, my love for you & my sincerity can go on & on till' the very day I die but like I said, I can say anything, I can try anything and end up losing.

All I'm saying is I've come back but not alone. Along with my are my sincerity in loving you & this love I have for you but if you know I'm only wasting my time because your heart is already owned by another, do tell so at the end of the day, I won't be laughing at myself.

Finally I Found You

2010-06-16T17:00:00.000+08:00

After sooo long, I've finally found you....

No words can describe how happy I am...

A Bloody Year of Singularity!

2010-06-13T18:51:00.000+08:00

13th June 2010, Officially Single For A Bloody Year! It Gets Better & Better!

Singularity Kicks Ass!

Lately

2010-06-12T11:26:00.000+08:00

I've been lazy to update but hell! My days have been the usual,well not really since Lan and Haiqal are already going through the 1st phase of their NS. They aren't around. Technically,my days are spent with Azhar and Zul.

Few days ago,i received my enlistment letter, yeah balls! I'm to report to Pasir Ris Interchange at 10.45 am...that's right, I'm in the army.It may not sound fun but I'm trying to be positive about it. I can't wait to get it over with so I can continue with my studies. On 16th September will be my first day in Tekong Island, BMTC School 2.

Soon enough, that's how I'll be spending my days...

Prince of Persia

2010-05-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

Watched it.... It's not that great nor it sucks...it's just okay.

If you ain't a hardcore fan..just download it.

You Aint' My Shit To Handle....

2010-05-27T10:14:00.001+08:00

I was blamed for something that ain't my fault. But fuck it, if it comes to the species called girl,it'll all be the same....no matter how mature they say they are,trust me,they aren't anywhere near mature till the learn how to be a woman.

Lies.....

2010-05-26T11:41:00.000+08:00

You Tell Me Nothing But........

Smirnoff.....

2010-05-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

The Best There Is......

SENTOSA!!!!!!!!!! AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-05-19T00:08:00.000+08:00

Sentosa was awesome....even though it was just the four of us,still awesome! It's a FUCK YEAH!

Far From Reach

2010-05-15T13:52:00.001+08:00

It began under the dictatorship of a dark lord with the mindset of world supremacy, an unholy worship of human made God. Minions send to overthrow the weak from their throne of peace and serenity, a vast plain of green basked in blood of the weak. The dark lord is obliged to his wretched mind and behavior of many aspects of chaos. To overrule and overwrite the system of peace, the hungry is not fed but slain, such torture only to exist in pixels and screens; come forth to reality of what is now a decaying and declining world.

To an extent to wreak havoc and rape the maidens while their child in hand and some, baby in womb,spare not the old and dying. Dark Lord breathes only the air of fresh blood which he smeared upon his face and body. His soap is the dismembered bodies of many.The dark lord lives in ease, sits on gold and sleep with sins, to what extent is the torment given upon the innocent, his wrath knows no mercy but only his mercy fears his name. The sun burns the earth with its deathly rays of sunlight, know not the weak what will come forth next but only to their faith is their hope.

Sons and fathers , daughters and mothers, love and the unborn....Godliness is now far from reach.

Ardy Anselmo

Dude, What The Fuck?!

2010-05-14T12:49:00.001+08:00

Yeah balls! What The Fuck...alright, wanna let you in on something.

Bedah, I'm starting to feel for you deeply....

Halt!, Who Goes There?!

2010-05-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

Again I ask myself, "Why do I even bother? Haiz....."

Rage Against The Machine!!!!

2010-05-10T13:20:00.000+08:00

Word Is Born
Fight The Norm
So Sick Of Complacence
D.E.F.I.A.N.C.E

They Are The Shit!
No Bands Can Do What They Did....
Both Musically & Politically.....

Graduation..It Came & Now Gone......

2010-05-06T13:44:00.000+08:00

Graduation came on 5th May 2010. It marks the 2 years of education me & my mates have received in ITE College East & it also marks a new chapter in my life. The number of times spent in Lecture Theater & Practical Lab are priceless. Now I have to make my way onwards to face something new & something I have no fucking clue about. Something I'm not ready to face as the responsibilities towards myself are getting heavier, I don't think that taking a step forward to adulthood is a 'Fuck Yeah!'. There's nothing much that i can do about it though, time never waits for us, infact we have to keep up with time or else we'll be left behind having a whole load of burden to carry upon our shoulder.

I just wish on 5th May 2010, everything would come to a halt, even time is no compromise. I just need to see and bask in all of the love that flows between me and all of my mates for the 2 years.I really could use that but as always, time is of the essence in life.

I had an awesome graduation ceremony, an awesome graduation dinner & an awesome graduation night....

My Thoughts In Gaelic

2010-05-05T10:38:00.000+08:00

Hän katsoi maan reunalta tähteä putoavaa
Nyt kauniit kasvot neitosen peittää karu maa
Jokaisen täytyy katsoa silmiin totuuden
Sillä aika ompi voittoisa, mut' tämä maa on ikuinen

Graduation...Not Looking Forward....

2010-05-03T19:07:00.000+08:00

Not Looking forward at all....it'll be boring and lame but hell,just drag myself there and what's worst..not even looking forward to the dinner later on.This whole thing is getting too old and very very fucking lame.

Not much to update on...tomorrow gonna do my shopping for graduation (no idea why i even bother but gonna keep it under a certain amount).

So Fuck All Of You...I Wish I Can Kill You People....

Fight This! Gotta Fight It!

2010-04-24T19:15:00.000+08:00

Those who think they know me, they don't.Only I know my limits and what i'm capable of. What i present unto them is nothing more than just how they think I am like. What they think they know of me might after all never be true....Only true love i find will know the true me.

Ignominious BASTARDS!

2010-04-16T13:05:00.000+08:00

Homosapiens are born outta greed, lust, mistakes, revenge, love & many more. It is our desire to succumb to whatever we are addicted to.Some deny and some embrace & some at a certain level will crave for more and more either for living in denial or embracing what is. Life is a hidden force, a force that sucks itself right out of us and pushes itself in us when we are in the need of it.

If it is to be only
an element of a whole,
to hide behind others
and form the eclipse of mind.

If it were to one
having nothing to tell,
this would equal
a state of being the one

Incarceration of personality
is the sad inception of self-denial.
The one that denies the inner self
flees into deception

Kuala Lumpur With The Lads....AWESOME!!!

2010-04-10T13:03:00.000+08:00

It was a 4 days 3 nights stay...one word - Awesome!!!! I'll let the pictures do the talking....(malas nk type..haha)

All Of'em Have To Be EXPERIENCED

2010-02-18T23:05:00.004+08:00

I must say I do have a great bunch of friends whom i really love to be with anywhere in the world, if given the choice to pick between music or them, i'll pick them. simply because i know i can count on them,no matter what the situation is.

Lan Tallec - This guy really is awesome.Why? We have been through shit, literally shit. We should be brothers, the bond we have really is amazing. He loves fuck (HAHA), but again,who doesn't? .He has always been there for me, even when i'm in deep shit, to me he is the epitome of fun and gay . He is the heart of all my jokes, laughter, rowdiness and gayness..haha!. I love you bro...

Aike McCallister - He is all but violent (especially his wits..OMG! haha). It's good because i have had enough violent people surrounding me, to mellow down is good and i must say i love it. I am who I am now is because of him. I actually took time to understand him and by doing so, i understand myself a lot better and there's no one i'll pour my heart out to than him. He really is a great listener and no doubt a fucking great friend. I love you man....

Zulfikar - This one, aisey man, he is all brains. Literally, no other dudes amongst us is smarter than him when it comes to assignments in school and i should add, he too is an expert in finding anything, just about anything on the internet.Zulfikar is one smart ass bastard that i love (not in a gay manner). I love you 4 eye...

Hafiz Hanneman - The best guitarist I have ever worked with. Every fucking riffs that he pulls are fucking amazing. I must say he is a great friend and a very professional guitarist. No other guitarist that I have ever worked with understand the riffs I want coming out from their guitar so well other than him. He matches every beat of the drums perfectly with his riffs. I love you and your Ibanez...

Dayne Gerous- Not dangerous at all. Trust me.haha! Dayne is the most good looking guy in class, the one with the silky hair, cute fag face, girl-shaped body, maniacal laughter and of course admired by many but sadly owned by none. Don't mistake him to be soft because when this retard get on stage, he growls fiercely. Being the vocalist in a Progressive Deathcore band, he sure doesn't look metal at all but he have a talent worth dying for. I love you Ai....

Fiq Beloh - Fuuyooo! This one ar,haiz! haha! Shafiq is probably the only gay in class,he wouldn't admit it but it's true, he loves Lan Tallec's anal and did anal Lan Tallec with his fingers thrice. God! The best thing about him, he is our top running dog, he holds the record for 'Sodomizing The Most Girls' among us. God knows the number of girls he had his sperm on their face, breast, belly or vagina. I love you just not in GAY manner...

Dzul - One hell of a MILF hunter this guy is. Haha. He is the only dude among us that is damn laid back and relaxed. A sorta guy that knows how and where he can get money. He holds the record for ' Sleeping With The Oldest Girl ' among us. His record? A 29 year-old. Cool right? Even I can't pull that off, my record is a 22 year-old.Haha. Although he might be with us most of the time but indeed he deserves to be one of us. I love you MILF hunter...

Aky Azack - When it comes to girl hunting, he is the guy for the job. Zaki and me would happen to stare at the same girl at the exact same time and we would comment not about how the girl is but how the girl will be when on bed naked with either one of us.Haha. He is sexually deprived and love deprived but nonetheless he does respect and appreciate girls when he is with one. I love you man...

Azhar Wretched - He is the shortest among us,seriously he is. He stands at 1.65cm I think but don't let his height fool you. He is very fit and indeed very short. He is a primary school friend of mine whom i have not met in I don't know how many years and recently we got close,very close in fact. Although short, he is never too short for anything and being a guitarist in a Progressive Deathcore band, his guitar skills makes it up for his height. I love you pendek....

All these above mentioned, i love'em and the best thing, we all have our own traits, some of which i might have missed out (I'm sorry) but no words can ever describe them the way they are. All of'em have to be experienced and i mean it. I love you guys and no words i type or have said or say can ever described the love i have but I'm sure as hell I have portrayed them when we're together....I must say every one of'em made a HUGE impact on my life.

Lately....

2010-02-17T17:36:00.000+08:00

Well, Saturday was great. Dyeth had our jamming session as we're putting the finishing touches to our new song, 'Dying Earth', I had a great time drumming since I was unable to drum for 3 weeks. It was weird siting behind the drum set after that long so i had a tiny problem, I kinda find myself hard to adjust to the adrenaline rush since i have been recuperating at home after my surgery but it was nothing i couldn't pull through and anyways i love the adrenaline rush i get from beating the fuck outta drums...haha! Oh yeah, that day we're suppose to audition a bassist but he couldn't make it...damn! This Saturday he will be coming down to audition...haha

This is Qhai Beast - Vocals

This is Kai - Guitars

This is Hafiz - Guitars

This is me aka Ardy Anselmo

After jamming, had dinner down at Sultan's Cafe and then head down to Boat Quay to meet Haiqal and Azhar...so hung out till 11.30 then head home.....

This is Hafiz and girlfriend , Hidayah

The one in the middle is Haiqal...

A Very Meaningful Chalet

2010-02-08T19:33:00.000+08:00

It is indeed very meaningful.That chalet means the 2 years of bonding that is tighter than chains of steel,the love that we have for each other,the ups and downs we went through together,the life we shared together,the places we went together,the things we have done together,the thought we have for each other,the tears we have shed for each other and the joy of being with one another.

This is The Love.....

06/02/2010 - 08/02/2010

Stitches

2010-01-28T23:35:00.000+08:00

Cool right? Haha

Appendicitis

2010-01-26T22:07:00.000+08:00

I suffered from that so on Sunday afternoon,i was warded at Changi General Hospital after being referred by my family doctor.I was warded at 4.00 pm and the worst thing is i have to fast throughout the whole day till the time for my operation comes.

So from 4.00 pm all the way till 10.00 pm,i was accompanied by my family and at the same time my surgeon came to explain how the surgery will be done and what i can expect after surgery,next my Anesthesia doctor came and explain on how the anesthesia will put me to deep sleep and numb my whole body and the side effects of it like nausea, giddiness and blurriness,next came the nurses...boy were they damn hot and some are fucking pretty..haha! They came with loads of documents for my mum to sign since i have yet to turn 21.

10.00 pm - My family went home, so i was left alone and i have to admit i was scared at the thought of having a surgery but i gathered my courage by reciting prayers over and over till i fell asleep.

1.00 am- I was waken up by a male nurse who brought me the surgery gown which i will have to put on during surgery.I got up and changed and then came a stretcher brought by 2 Indian female nurse,i got on it and so the journey to the Operation Theater begins (the minute i got on the stretcher,that very minute i started to recite my prayers which stops only when i was given the anesthesia which puts me to sleep in a few seconds),i was told to take off the upper part of my surgery gown and then came the moment.I was half naked and nurses put on a very warm blanket on me (its warm because there's a hot air that blows inside of it) since the Operation Theater is freaking cold.

2.00 am - Surgeons came,one of'em said to me "i'm gonna give u the anesthesia now" and seconds after i was in slumberland.

6.00 am - Awaken by a nurse who kept calling my name,"Muhammad,Muhammad,Muhammad".I opened my eyes and realized the surgery was over,to me it was 5 minutes but actually it was 4 hours.I was glad everything went well and i thanked Allah S.W.T for the smooth surgery and me having another chance at making things right.

6.30am - My parents came,boy,am i glad to see'em.I can hardly talk and was very weak but i managed to stay awake till they left for work which was at 8.00 am.

12.00 pm - I was given Milo,this was to initiate the activity of my intestines and stomach,i drank slowly as i can so as not to rush my stomach and intestines.

2.00 pm- My mum came and stayed throughout the whole day.

5.30 pm - 10.30 pm :- Friends and family came to visit,Lan bought me a get well card.It was very sweet of that fatso and sweet of the rest to come visit.

-I love you guys
-I love my family
-I love my life

Necropolis...OUCH! Stomach hurts...!

2010-01-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

So for today,i was forced to wake up at 9.00am because i have to accompany my mum to the market and out of all markets,she chose Geylang...that was a total FUCK! So,reached Geylang,bought sambal chicken rice (sedap dok...!) and after waited for my mum outside of the market.After she's done,went home and yeah,the whole of today,my stomach hurts like fuck.

At 2.00 pm,met Azhar at Simei MRT platform (initially it was suppose to be at 1.30 but you guys know how I am,hard to keep up with the time.haha! ) , head down to Orchard because I need to send in my handphone for servicing and as it still is under warranty so why not? We went to Sony Ericsson at Wisma Atria,so got my queue ticket and waited around.The service ain't bad but the shit thing is I waited for an hour but hell, as long as my handphone gets serviced,it's fine by me.

4.00 pm. Head down to Beat Merchants,Bugis. Dyeth is having our practice session and hellyeah! At first I tried one-footed blasting for only a few of our originals but then I discovered that I can do so for all of our originals and each is at 200 bpm! haha! Still stomach hurts....and so we did a cover of The Black Dahlia Murder's Necropolis and Miasma and Misery Index's Traitors.After 1h30mins of jamming,we went for dinner at Sultan's Cafe...oh yeah,the dudes from No Rest for The Weary tagged along.

After dinner,Dyeth head down to Esplanade to just chill and No Rest for The Weary went for shisha.

- 25th January :- Dismembered & Infected will be out!
-Dyeth searching for bassist
-I need a women's touch....

Dancing away....

2010-01-11T10:21:00.000+08:00

Yeah I was pretty much dancing at TP's (Temasek Poly) Jam & Hop . Azhar asked me to tag along with him and his girlfriend,I didn't wanna go at first since i don't really know how to dance but heck! So i tagged along and the minute we reached there,nothing much was happening so we just stood around and watched whatever's happening on stage and like usual, Azhar & me were joking & laughing our ass off.

1 hour passed and the MC introduced a DJ all the way from ZOUK and so people started to gather near the stage and when the DJ started to play the songs,people were dancing. Azhar and girlfriend pulled me into the 'dancefloor' and I wasn't quite sure that I wanna do it...you know ..dance? Hell,I did anyways. Azhar was dancing with his girlfriend,he was having fun and as for me? I'm not sure what to do,so since everyone was dancing and no one bothers whether their dancing is silly so I started to dance.I don't know what I'm doing actually and i can't believe that I'm dancing.

People were jumping,shouting,singing to their songs and never stopped dancing.I was observing everyone (while dancing) and everyone was like in a trance.Guys were dancing with some girlfriends,some girls they don't know,just go up to them and dance.At one point of time,i stopped dancing not to take a breather but i realized that I wished Nurbahiah is still mine and i would have loved to hold her in my arms and dance with her,get lost in her beautiful blue eyes,wrap my arms around her sexy waist,my hands in her wavy hair,my lips locked with hers and for her to just smile at me and whispers in my ears like she always do and said "no matter how hard life may be,no matter how low you will sink,there's nothing for you to worry because wherever you turn,every turn you take,it will bring you to me and always remember that whatever happen to us,I will always love you for I know that you will always love me." If only she's able to read this post. Right there i was standing in the midst of all the dancing fools,I was missing her so bad and it hurts so bad to know that she couldn't be here right next to me....

1st day of school

2010-01-04T19:05:00.000+08:00

It's not the 1st day where you enter in a new school,it's my 1st day after 2 & a half months of attachment.I must say i was excited.So i waited for Dayne and Fiqq at Tampines Interchange at 11.45 am & as usual they're late especially Dayne & the fuck thing is,i promised Lan that i'll see him in school at Cafe 3 around 11.45.The thing is,the guys are never early and so am i.

They reached and we waited for 31 for 15 minutes i think....crapping on the bus and hell yeah,these 2 dumbos need to fucking smoke and Lan was waiting for us at the school's bus stop.The 3 pf'em smoked,Me? I can't help but to look around,i mean come on?! New Year,new intake,new sluts in school.The tradition that will never cease.

Head to class and we're AWESOMELY late,we reached class at 12.30,to us,12.30 is still considered early.I was happy to see my classmates and like finally school all over again but this time,it's only 3 months of school then the NS life for me.

-Mawar looked alot prettier
-Zaki,Dayne,Fiqq,Nad,Qal & Shima looked the same
-Hafiz ALWAYS the same..haha
-Me? I'm just happy to be who i am...

New motherboard - Biostar G31-M7

2009-12-31T11:51:00.000+08:00

Few days back,either my graphic card or motherboard was damaged.It happened when my dad was using the computer and suddenly the whole screen just went blank,so whenever this happens ,it can either be your motherboard or graphic card (if you have one).I'm using an Nvidia graphic card since my previous motherboard doesn't have integrated graphic.

The graphic card i'm using - Asus Nvidia 6600GT

So i decided to get a new motherboard which does have an integrated graphic (most motherboards nowadays does come with it).I went to Drop & Fix (the company i use to work for) & initially i wanted to get a Biostar P4M900-M7 but they ran out of it so then i get the Biostar G31-M7 TE which is way better than the P4M900-M7.The G31-M7 cost me $62.00 but the price that they are selling to customers will be $110.00.

Biostar G31-M7

So i hung out with them for a while and after which i met Azhar at Tampines for dinner but the sucker had already eaten so then i ate alone.We had dinner at Tampines Mall's Mcdonalds,i had a Fillet 'O' Fish meal and Azhar had a strawberry McFlurry.After dinner,we walked around the mall,Azhar was lookign for his PS3 games and i was looking for my iPod wall charger but they only have a portable charger.So hung out a littler bit more then we went home.

The minute i got home,i got started on my desktop.Everything's fine except that i need to get a new graphic card.

Saturday....

2009-12-20T01:07:00.001+08:00

Went out for movie with Azhar,initially we thought of watching Zombieland at Cathay Cineleisure but since it's sold out (FUCKER!!!!),we went down to Plaza Singapura and catched Storm Warriors 2

This movie is fucking lame! I mean it,it was such a waste of our money.Well,technically not our money.Haha! The effects were cool but the story lne and the fighting scene were dull.This movie took effects form the movie 300.Me & Azhar slept most of the time and seriously,out of 1 hour & 30mins,i only managed to watch 30 minutes of the movie because i was sleeping the whole time.Yes, it is that boring and slow.FAG!

After that,we met Lan and we played Left For Dead 2.

Now that's the shit dudes!We played from 9pm till 11 pm.

I LOVE TO KILL THE FUCK OUTTA ZOMBIES!

End Of Atttachment...

2009-12-18T00:57:00.000+08:00

Finally,the moment i've been dreading for.End of attachment! haha. Attachment has been very tiring but then again which aspect of work is not tiring? Attachment is fun,i learn loads of new shits about desktops & laptops.Most suckers use 'em without taking care of it but the fact is,it needs attention just like we do.We need to care for it & since I have learn the proper ways and what exactly to do on how to care for it,i know now that it is not easy to care for it.

I sure will miss my colleagues.

Azri is the desktop pro,no doubt about it.Anything about a fucking desktop,he would definitely know...all i have to do is just ask,technically he's the walking dictionary of computers.I have learned a bunch of shits from him,from processors all the way to building a damn new system of any sort.You name it,i build it.

Simon,my manager is the one that taught me every thing i need to know on a software,any software...you name it,eventhough he's a manager,he's a damn cool one.Seriously he has never even reprimand me before.All he did was tell me everything in a nice manner,you guys would definitely love to have him as your manager wherever you're working.He's not the typical manager shit.

Gabriel is the ass with the mole on his mouth.haha.On a serious note,he is a fun guy,he taught on troubleshooting and installing drivers even though when the drivers can't be installed.Definitely he taught me a way that is easy and very useful.

Now comes to my technician,he's a china man but not any china man.He's a skillful motherfucker..haha.His name is Xin Jian.Anything wrong with your laptop especially your mainboard,he's the man you should look for.He fixes any problem on the mainboard of a laptop and i mean any problem.

Well,i'm sure gonna miss'em but hell.....

The Truth

2009-12-10T12:22:00.000+08:00

There's one sad truth in life I've found while journeying east and west ,the only folks we really wound are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest &
Deal full many a thoughtless blow to those who love us best......

If only i can turn back the time.......

Let the killing begin!

2009-12-03T14:20:00.000+08:00

Mahalo suckers! I've been up to nothing much,got my pay on the 1st December,bought my iPod Touch.Now that i know how to get around it,i kinda find it quite boring,not as interesting as i thought it would be but it still kicks ass.I've been listening alot to Vital Remains lately & for those who have no idea what's that,it's a Brutal Death Metal band.

Life for me has been ok.My weekends are usually spent with my scums(bandmates & close friends),most of the time we'll hang out and play Left 4 Dead 2,it may sound kinda boring but fuck yeah man,it's the shit! haha.I have been single for 6 months now & how does it feel? To be honest,i have no idea,it's ok i guess but at times at night when the loneliness sets in,it sucks.Every night i'll pick up my acoustic guitar,play some acoustic shit from 3 Doors Down,Alterbridge,Kris Allen & Daughtry.

I have to admit i'm in need of some lovin but fuck it,i guess it'll be another 6 months or 1 year till i get a new bitch or maybe i'll have one when i'm ready to commit.Anyways my dick is dormant for now,it'll be a few years (i hope) from now for my dick to be active again.haha!

Dismembered & Infected RECORDED!!!!

2009-11-26T12:06:00.001+08:00

Recording Dismembered & Infected was fucking awesome! Cedric was our producer & he's an awesome producer...fucking awesome.He knew how we wanted to sound like since our influences are from bands like Cannibal Corpse,Misery Index & Job For A Cowboy.

We reached the studio at 11.30am,so we got in....talked about the whole recording process & yeah,we started off with the drum tracks.I had a blast recording the tracks man.It was awesomely fun & it kicks ass! Cedric did compliment me on my drumming,he said i play beautifully for a 20 year old.I blast like no other 20 year olds that came in to record.He said i have a great intensity when playing.So after the drums were done which took me only 1 hour 30 mins,we went for lunch.

After lunch was done,it was time to record the guitars and bass which took 2 hours & 45 mins.Vocals took 30 mins and were we done,by the time we were done,it's already 7 pm.Cedric told us he had fun recording for us and it was his pleasure to be our producer.

Here are the pictures,too bad there were no pictures of me on the drums.FUCK!

In 2 weeks time,our song will be out.Can't wait!

Death Upon Arrival 3 Kicks Mighty ASS!!!

2009-11-24T16:07:00.000+08:00

It sure did especially when Dyeth performed! HAhaha! There was such a great amount of energy going to & fro from us to the crowd....it's the shit man!
I had a blast performing...blasting to every fucking song,my favourite song to play live is Dismembered To Infected...that song kicks ass!

I didn't snap lotsa pictures...but here's some of it...

Here's Hafiz & Hidayah...

Here's me strangling Azhar of No Rest For The Weary....

Here's my bandmates. We're Dyeth but too bad our bassist left due to personal differences

So 25th...time for us to record Dismembered To Infected.Can't hardly wait!

Sunday

2009-11-16T11:07:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was fun.Technicaly i do the same shit every weekends,went for jam session with Dyeth as we have a gig coming up and a recording session on our tails so yeah...practice! We managed to cover Cannibal Corpse's Make Them Suffer and of course we're gonna play that song on 21st November for Death Upon Arrival 3.We had a hard time trying to get the timing right for that damn song but yeah we managed to pull it of in 45 minutes but stil alot of practice needed.

We jammed from 2.30 to 4.30 after which we went to Funan for lunch at Qi Ji,all of us had nasi lemak.haha! Then went over to Clarke Quay to just chill out,i was damn tired after 2 bloody hours of fast-paced drumming and of course blasting the fuck outta every song is real tiring.So we hung out till 7pm,Fiz,Kayyum & Qhai went home & as for me,i went over to City Hall to meet up Dayne and Azhar.

Azhar

Dayne

The minute i reached,we head to Raffles City's Mcdonalds and had drinks.We hung out till 10.45 pm i think? haha.Technically we laughed the fuck outta our ass & yeah,while we're at Mcdonalds,i saw this minah tudung..lawa sia..but fuck! Before could approach her for her number,she went off.Dammit!

So we head home and i didn't have enough rest and the shit thing is,now i'm at work.Fuck fuckety fuck fuck fuck! haha....

So next week..Death Upon Arrival 3!!!!!

Better than you think i am

2009-11-13T12:37:00.004+08:00

Yesterday met Qal & Zul after work...finally! I was really missing them and not only them,infact i miss the whole bunch! Meeting them was of course without a doubt fun.Lan Gallagher and his girlfriend Insyirah joined as well.

We first head down to Burger King at Bugis Market,had dinner then head down to Starbucks because Qal is craving for it,I've had too much of Starbucks for the past weeks so gonna pass it this time round.Lan met us at Starbucks and we talked about a whole lotsa shit since it was a very long time since we all last met.Everyone was missing school terribly and working life sucks but bo pian ar.Atrachment plays a big part in our grades so fuck that!

The moment Insyirah or Cyra (that's what Lan call his gf) came,we all made a move over to Tong Seng,a coffeeshop behind Bugis Junction.All of us ordered drinks as we already ate except for Lan and Cyra,they both had chicken rice.

So technically more talks over drinks and food.We end the whole thing at 10.45pm and made it back home.

This weekend i'll be working on a goddamn Saturday but as for Sunday,i'll be having my band practice since we have a recording session and a gig coming our way ,so that means practice,practice and more practice.

Can't wait for recording and DEATH UPON ARRIVAL 3!!!
WOOHOOOO!

Anyways here's my current favourite video.
He's Shannon Lucas from The Black Dahlia Murder

Another boring day @ work

2009-11-09T17:02:00.000+08:00

Yup...yet another boring day.Nothing much to do,all i did was dignosed laptop.That's all & since i was damn bored,i browse through Nisa's blog entry...not all of it though,just those entries that had me in it.Haha....so just read through it and watched some videos from youtube.That basically covers my day.

On Saturday though,me and my bandmates (Dyeth & Unrest In The Masses) went out,technically just hung out.We got to taste how Left 4 Dead 2..haha,it ws damn great and funny since we kept starting over....i suck at it.After all that...just hung out at Plaza Singapura...i bought 3 shirts & a belt from Giordano...well,that's all of it.

For You

2009-11-03T18:59:00.000+08:00

The silence
Is what kills me
I need someone
Here to help me
But you don't know
How to listen
And let me make
My decisions

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
The silence get's us no where
Get's us no where way too fast

All your insults
And your curses
Make me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like
I am nothing
But you make me
So do something

Cause I'm fucked up
Because you are
Need attention
Attention you couldn't give

Robots.....

2009-10-30T19:08:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..nothing much to update about.Work technically fills up my weekdays and band activities for my weekends.Work now is getting boring day by day because i do the same thing every goddamn fucking day but hell,no choice.

Few weeks back a customer came to me to fix her Lenovo laptop & so i did,first off i did a motherboard repair for her & reformat & OS installation after which she brought home that very day.After 2 days the same problem occured which was an auto-shutdown.She came back to me & this time i took in her laptop and did a burning test.A Burning test is a way to test the hardware is working fine and that it won't crash...2 days straight i did a burning test to her Lenovo and it was running fine & so once again i called her up & told her that her dear laptop is fine & ready for her abuse.

The next day,she called me up & told me that the problem still persist.This time round,she came to my workplace at 7+ & she waited for me to attend to her.I diagnose and to my surprise,it was her own fault,she failed to update her windows.Total idiot! haha.

Soon after it was time to go home and i went home with her.She too stayed in Tampines ,near my block but before we head home,we chilled at a nearby coffeshop and she bought me iced coffee because i endured with her Lenovo.haha.

Her name's Diana

Work...work..work

2009-10-27T16:53:00.000+08:00

I've been busy working,very very busy with work and my band.I have hardly enough rest but bo pian,no choice.Haha...work is fun though,Reformatting laptops,disassemble laptops/desktops,customizing desktops and everything that has got to do with laptop and desktops.Nothing much to update but work..so fuck it.

Attachment

2009-10-11T23:41:00.000+08:00

I got attahced to a company in Sim Lim Square...it aint as bad as i thought...it's very relaxing and even though what i do there might look hard to others but it really isnt once u get the hang of it...i've work there for 5 days now and the people there are really friendly and easy to get along with.The best thing is,my best mate Lan also works in the same company as i am only we're placed at different outlets.The company have 8 different outlets in Sim Lim Square.Haha...fun place to work at and no dress code.

What i do is reformat of laptops and desktops.Disassemble and assemble of laptops and desktops,installing new OS (Operating System).That wraps it up.Work starts at 10.30 am and ends at 8.30 pm so it's a total of 10 hours and i earn $4/hr which is not bad.

What i do there has got nothing to do with what i learn in school because they don't imply wireless technology.They're more to computer networking.At least i picked up a new skill.haha.Well,i;m working tomorrow so i gotta hit the sack.Here are some pictures of what i do.

Kickass raya!!!!

2009-10-06T23:56:00.001+08:00

Raya with my class scums and best buds was fucking great! Here are the pics..not all of it though..haha

Dyeth Raya Outing......

2009-10-03T23:54:00.002+08:00

Today i went out with Dyeth and few of the dudes from the local music scene...a total of atleast 9 people i think.haha.Well,i have to wake up early because Qhai wanted us to meet him at Choa Chu Kang at 12 pm.I got up at 9.30 and left the house at 10.30.

I went to meet Hafiz first at the bus stop near his block,i agreed to meet him at 10.45 am but as usual i was late.I reached around 11.15.So when i reached,Hafiz was already at the bus stop...so all that was left to do was wait for bus service 60 because we are heading over to Eunos MRT....then we reached,boarded the train then a long ride all the way to Choa Chu Kang but it wasn't bad as me and Hafiz joked and laugh our ass off.

Upon reaching Jurong East,Kayyum messaged Hafiz,we were told to meet him at Jurong East MRT platform and so we did and as usual...Kayyum was late...i think around 15 mins late.Hafiz was quite impatient and excited bout the whole Raya outing that he kept wanting to board the train first and met Kayyum at CCK.haha.

So we were late in meeting Qhai and his gf.We reached at 12.45 pm.haha.Qhai wasnt mad so then off we go to the first house which was at Petir.It was Man's house (ex OPX guitarist) then after that so on and so forth...lazy to really update but one thing for sure....we went to 7 houses..mine was the last one...hmmm...we sure did alot of laughing and goofing off..haha.

It sure was a fun day and on Monday....it will be with my class scums...haha...cant wait...!!!

Through struggle

2009-10-02T02:04:00.000+08:00

I'm through with all of the shits that has taken over my mind.Fuck it man,I ain't gonna be control by it.I'm sick and tired of all of the problems that i have to face and deal with every goddamn sickening day.Fuck fuckety fuck fuck fuck! Imagine everyday my mind is troubled by things that I'm not even a part of,that i don't even start and yet I'm left to think of it all alone.DAMMIT! I've always been keeping my anger...always holding it back...anger towards anything and anyone.How i wish i can beat the fuck outta those who have angered me,i wanna vent my anger on them.I've always put on a stupid smile for the sake of pity or being nice or friends or sympathy & to think,they don't even show any appreciation and worse still,blame me for things i didn't even do.Anyone reading this would think I'm all talk and no action...well let me tell you something,i would have beat the fuck outta you or even kill but due to me forcing myself to always be patient,i didn't gave in to my anger.

With all of this anger inside of me........so much hatred i bear,I'm lucky to have friends that do care and always there but I'll never will I trouble them.If I'm found guilty,I'll take the responsibility.

Anyways...i just checked out my exam results:

Unix-D
WWMC-C
WNS-C

Total GPA: 1.9 (FUCK!!!!!)

Well,lucky for me,i've got the last stretch left and I'm gonna make it count...gonna work hard....I've been fooling around too much and taking it easy but not this time.Fuck! That's all scums! haha!

Unfurling A Darkened Gospel..........

2009-10-01T17:50:00.001+08:00

Propel this solitary man in front of us
With his corrupted global agenda muttering into his ears

Corporate money stuffed into his pockets to spread his darkened gospel
In the past the crowned once held the covenant to shape and develop a better world

Their influence and supremacy built by generating optimistic and confident perception
Offerings to their herds of sheep
Time repeats itself and outspoken pledges continue to not succeed
The people have renounced trust in ideologies

Safety and protection is the contemporary vow
For the role that will reinstall masterdom and control

Corporate money stuffed into his pockets to spread his darkened gospel
In the past the crowned once held the covenant to shape and develop a better world

To rescue us from uncertainty and peril that we are visionless to see or interpret
A threat that evidently needs to be fought in a manufactured, waged war
A vile misconception that has unfurled unquestioned while being exaggerated and disfigured
And disfigured

Their influence and supremacy built by generating optimistic and confident perception
Offerings to their herds of sheep

A threat that evidently needs to be fought
A, a manufactured, waged war
A vile misconception that has unfurled

Unquestioned
While being exaggerated
And disfigured

HARI RAYA....

2009-09-22T01:19:00.000+08:00

Well....its Hari Raya...of course it's fun but i didn't take loads of pictures as i was busy eating and entertaining those who entertained me..haha! As always...on the first day...my family and me went to 3 houses but we did stayed long at each house because my parents love to 'bersembang' (like all makcik and pakcik la..) ,by the time we got home it was already 12.00 am.

Second day was also 3 houses..haha! still have loads fo house to cover but its no biggy since my relatives are coming to my house this saturday for a open house...so which means you suckers are invited but do have to give me a call first..well nothing much to update.You all should already know 'the Raya routine'..so yeah

Ketupat...

2009-09-19T04:15:00.000+08:00

So i have just finished with weaving of my ketupats....it was fun and tiring.It's of course not easy but once you get hang of it....it's fun.Every year during fasting month,i look forward for the last 2 days of it because that's the days where me and my family will weave the ketupats and boil it.Boiling of ketupats will take 4 hours...yes 4 bloody hours but it wont be a 4 boring hours because me and my siblings will take turns and play raya songs on the guitar and singing along with our friends coming over to help out.every year it will be like this and i will always look forward.

Well....today is the last day of Puasa and i can say i've learned alot from it like dealing with problems especially Nisa...she's still bugging me and it's very irritating....and whole other problems but one thing for sure,whatever the problem is,it can never take over my mood for Raya...

So to all of my scums(classmates),band mates and friends whom i have made for the past years...i seek your forgiveness and with that said....

I WISH ALL OF YOU ....

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!!

Thursday......and so not looking forward to GAYlang..haha

2009-09-17T17:22:00.000+08:00

Life is always what it is and life will never be the point of compromise because life has always been nothing but decisions and decisions are made everyday without realizing what,who and when will these decisions affect or take effect.I think we see life like a vast land of greens and we are the tress and the branches are the effect of our decisions....but life itself is calm and serene but life too is hasty and harsh along with it comes violence.

Life's only problems is us humans because we can never have enough of everything especially money.Humans alike will never settle for anything less,the word more is always the subject,the main purpose,the agenda and more is always the cause of everything be it good or bad but we as humans always know what is right and what is wrong.Humans take advantage of one's ability in any aspect because humans are always driven by temptation and temptation alone can lead to a whole new ball game.What we know of earth,our knowledge of earth is basically a raindrop in a million raindrops.

Scientist thinks that once they know one,they know all but of course with years and years of research and once again they found the rights to play GOD.It's true we are GOD in our own life,we decide,choose and judge but what makes us think that by doing all that gives us the title GOD?

Godliness or the science of GOD,how many out there believe in GOD for many believe in the science of GOD meaning everything has an explanation...well in that case everything in life is science which is also true but what about a mosque that stood still after a huge tsunami wept away everything else....can we say it's science? It'll be ridiculous for some to say its magic...i would say it's Life.

Life don't deceive us but we humans deceive ourselves.

6 Days left.....the last stretch

2009-09-14T15:49:00.000+08:00

Yeah mates,the last stretch of Puasa..haha! Raya is only 6 days away and thank god my house is all cleaned except for my room...if only my siblings ain't so goddamn lazy but hell....i'll do it myself.Hmmm....for 4 days i didn't fast,not the last 4 days but 4 days in a month..get what i mean? Reasons? I just don't feel like fasting but its better than last year which i only fast for 1 week.Cool right? HAHA! I have not attended a single Terawih but i thought of doing so....the only thing is WHEN?

Fasting month for this year seems quite mundane not sure why though.I have done nothing much except for jamming and the usual meet ups with the scums.Oh...i forgot to mention,now i have 2 bands which is Dyeth (main band) and the other is a relatively new band.Azhar formed this band with Dayne,Shafiq and Hafiz,when he asked me at first,i was reluctant to join becasue i'm afraid that i might not be able to commit since right now i am a sessionist drummer for few other metal bands but since Azhar really seems to be serious and committed so i joined after all he is my primary school mate.

of course when there's Hafiz in the band,expect no easy guitar riffs and to Hafiz i'm the only drummer who is a match for his riffs...well i'm not sure about that.Anyways that's all...nothing much....

Puasa dok..jgn tk puasa...lagi 6 hari siol....haha!

Saturday....

2009-09-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

Today i stayed home the whole day,helping out my mum clean up the house since next week Sunday is Hari Raya.So technically i vacuumed and mopped the whole house and damn was i tired.After that,helped my mum to put up new curtains and i changed my bed sheet and more stuffs like that.I'm not the sort who would help out but since all my siblings are damn lazy....i decided to.

Cleaning end at 6.30 pm..so quickly i took a bath and helped my mum with setting up the dining table for buka and i too help with preparing of the foods....this is the first time i've ever helped out my mum with all of this things...haha..i find it funny.After eating,went to perform my maghrib prayers.

At 8.30 met Shariff! haha...lame tk nmpk dok...haha. He's one of my best friend other than Lan.We 3 are inseparable because we are at heart a hooligan...all 3 of us.Of course we do grow up and our thinking manner matures.

The Past

2009-09-11T03:03:00.000+08:00

I was diggin out all of my stuffs in my computer and boy...i found loads of pictures that i've deleted...so i restored them...and this brings back memories......

Her name is Nurbahiah or she's better known ad Nur Kristina....vast different in her names aye? haha. I knew her when i was 16 years of age.She was with her friends hanging out at the playground in front of my block and me? I was in my balconvy or studio as it was at that point of time...was jamming with my then guitarist Sudurul.So we were like jamming to Metallica and Iron Maiden,i was tired so i decided to look out my window when i saw her,i just couldn't look away and decided to ask for her number and this is how it goes.

Me(from my balcony): assamlamualaikum!
She (playground): wa'alaikum salam
Me: i would want to have your number!
She: (doing hand signals to give me her number)
Me: Thanks!

But little did i know,i got 1 of the number worng and so i didnt manage to call her up till my brother who also wanted to get to know her got her number.One day,he was talking to her on the phone pretending to be me....and soon after he passed me the phone and finally i got the chance to talk to her.So we got to talking everyday at 6pm...and it goes on for 3 weeks and that's when i popped the question....it goes "would u be my girlfriend?" and she replied "give me one week...(silence)forget it...YES!".Upon hearing that,i jumped for joy! haha...you have no idea how happy i was.

Well...that was it...we then got together and the relationship lasted for 2 years,it was the best relationship i've ever been in.To be honest,till this very day,i can never brush her outta my mind.

Over and out!

2009-09-09T00:59:00.000+08:00

Exams are over...haha! but of course i still have 3 months of attachment.I still have no idea to which company i will be attached to,all will be revealed this Thursday.Hopefully i get a company that's not too far nor too near...somewhere around City Hall would be perfect.
I got nothing to update on....except that it's 11 days till Hari Raya! haha! cant wait.......

Videos

2009-09-07T03:38:00.000+08:00

The only song i love from them....haha

JAMMING !!!!!!

2009-09-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

Finally! after 2 months of not hitting the drums,what a relieve when i sat on behind the drum set...and yeah we improvised on our original Cross Shall Fall....gerek dok! Haha! First the band rendezvous at Bugis MRT at 4.30 pm and as usual |Hafiz was late,so we decided to head to the studio and meet him there.Got in the studio, set the drums up and kinda just played around with the double peddles and snares....more like warm up before the whole band gets started.

Hafiz reached around 10 minutes later and we started off with Jigsaw then followed by Dismembered & Infected then followed by Forgotten then followed by Black Heart Breaking and finally we re-constructed the whole of Cross Shall Fall,technically we threw away all the old guitar riffs and drum parts.Hafiz wanted this to be more technical and more brutal or in his words"aku nk buat lagu ni something like Job For A Cowboy nye new album tpi without running away from kite nye Death roots", and so we started the whole process of re-constructing and after 1 hour,we completed the whole song and damn! It was sure tiring because i'm doing such extreme drumming that i have never thought i would or could but then i pulled it off but still need to touch up more on the song.

We end jamming at 6.30 and head straight to Hajah Esah restaurant ,located somewhere near Masjid Sultan and damn the place was fucking packed but finally we managed to find a table for 5 since Lan was with us.We ordered and as usual the drinks came first and then our food....so we ate and then lepak then balek...haha.

Exams....6 Sept @ 4.30am

2009-09-06T04:20:00.001+08:00

coming very very soon,right around the corner.Anyways yesterday after break fast,i went to study for my exams with Haiqal and Zul at Whitesands' Mcdonalds,we reached around 9+ and settled at the 2nd floor....oh yeah,Nad or Irah as i call her,joined us...she was obviously late.Me and the rest started on with our notes and review questions.

soon after Nad came and of course when Haiqal meets Nad,it will be followed by hours of endless chatters and needless to say,it happened but me and Zul were so use to their pointless chatterings....it didnt really bother us that much because whether its in class or out of it,their mouths makes phone operators seems less talkative..haha!

WNS not really an easy module and seriously i hardly paid any attention in class or Lecture Theater for WNS.One thing is due to Mr.James dull and boring lecture,the other is due to me and Lan never ending jokes and laughter but still thanks to the help of Internet,me and the scums managed to find answers to Mr.James review questions.

Lets sidetrack, i think Nisa would be please or pissed at the fact that her boyfriend is a friend of Nad's whom she happen to really hate for no apparent reason,well maybe she does have her reason but to me,her reasons are ridiculous.VERY!

Thats all,We went home at 11.15 and of course Nad left first...technically her prince 'charming' picked her up and as for us,well there's always the public transport.

Skarang nk sahor.....haha

2009-09-04T02:52:00.000+08:00

What if i say a beauty like yours can never be found in this cosmos,
Your beauty and allure may i extol,
A sparkling demeanor flows from your face,
Your deep dark tresses descends in a dazzling maze,
Your scarf that's flowing is like a whiff of cloud blowing,
Draped in your beauty are both beauty and grace,
If i say charisma as yours can't and never will be around will you believe me?
Now we cruise the same way,i'll come with you wherever you say,
My beloved,
If i say to you,you're a fairy...it' true,
Believe me when i say i love you.....

Friends?

2009-09-01T05:09:00.000+08:00

Lately Nisa send wanted me to be friends with her but i can't find myself to be friends.The thing is i don't wanna be friends because i don't feel good about it,look at it this way.You love a person so much despite knowing she belongs to another so would you be friends? It would for me to be friends....i still do love her but i'm not concentrating much on it because i know it's not worth it.We chat on MSN yesterday as she wanted to know why i don't wanna be friends.I told her my reason and everything else she asked about,while chatting with her ......my chest felt very heavy,very very heavy and there's this awkward feeling running down my spine.....whatever i felt during that moment chatting with her,well it's hard to describe it.It was quite a long chat....i told her stuffs about me,stuffs that i don't do anymore....kinda am a changed person.I was really hoping Nisa would turn back but hell who was i kidding? Life would'nt be that nice,if it does...to me it would totally seem like a love story showing in the cinemas.Haha.Of course without being so nice and making us work for what we want,life is fun...the way it makes us do things is fun just like love,when in love...we do things that we thought we would never do but we did...expect the unexpected.Well of course i was feeling down but heck,life is too fun,too good to be wasting it away.Nisa is my past and since past is indestructible,so there's no way i can erase her off this memories that's stored in my brain.

That's all...nothing much,just wanna let it off my chest,feeling better now.

"I da tkde sape-sape lagi klau u tinggalkan i" That's what you said that made me feel invulnerable but i know it ain't true,Thank you though.

Someone on my mind

2009-08-30T02:06:00.000+08:00

Don't you cry my love,
A single tear you shed that drops on earth washes away your sorrows of years,
My shoulder may you rest your head upon,
Heaven may your final resting place be,
In my heart you live on,
For you are always the remains of me
Your tears are my ever lasting downpour,
Your eyes are my beautiful sight,
Your hands my ever constant hope,
Your hugs my ever constant warmth,
Your love my ever lasting memory
And
My love your ever lasting experience....

Today....26 August @ 9.08pm

2009-08-26T21:07:00.000+08:00

Buka puasa sorang dok kat kedai kopi tpi still i think it's good enough rather than no food to eat...worse still no money.After that met Lan and Haiqal at Starbucks...not a big fan of Starbucks but will do since Lan has the partner's card and we get discounts for our drinks.Right now Haiqal is right beside me and Lan is nowhere to be seen...anyways i ahd chicken cutlet and pepsi.

no pepsi in the picture...

At Starbucks...i bought Caffe Mocha...it was not bad..thought of getting cappucino...

well..now browsing through Zildjian cymbals...well that remains to be seen.

Cant Sleep. 26 August @ 02.52 am

2009-08-26T02:46:00.000+08:00

Yea..that's much likely the case of me blogging in the wee hours.I cant seem to get an eye shut,i tried to sleep but nah...it didn't work so here i am.One reason i can't sleep is because there's too much stuff running in my mind like for example my phase test and it's results,upcoming WNS Exam which i have to really study hard for,i miss beating the shit outta my drum set,industrial attachment,Dyeth's recording and many more.

It's not easy trying to be relaxed when i'm thinking of all the above mentioned day in and day out.It seems to me i ain't doing my best in school because mainly my heart's not there but i have to force myself in order to not have to slog in the future,its funny that a piece of paper matters much than my passion for music.On a serious note,i really feel like quitting school but i can't because i'll end up not having a good future.I have to have a Diploma and a Degree then i can finally unbuckle this buckle that got me buckled to a very hot seat.haha.

Hafiz and Haiqal are still at each other's neck or should i say Hafiz is being a tad too serious and very tense.I'd reckon him to lay it all to rest because i don't him to have a shitty 2 years of Higher Nitec.I know at times Haiqal can be harsh with his comments and his point of views but i really think that Hafiz be serious aboout it because i don't think Haiqal is.I mean everyone is subjected to what they wanna say and Hafiz should see and understand that.I'm not anyone's side though...just trying hard to make everything alright.

Singularity? It ain't bad as i thought it would be.I'm doing fine but of course a women's touch wouldn't hurt...any guys would definitely agree.HAHA.Since my band is on a break,they only way i'm keeping my drumming skills in shape is by practicing my blasting techniques and paradidles on my snare which i have just changed it's skin.I bought Aquarian skin for my snare and the rest of my toms and bass drum.

Blasting is of course considered one of metal drumming extreme hard to do but it isn't really,all is needed is practice but of course you have to learn to use your wrist to play the drums and not hands because you will tire easily in a short period of time and same goes to your feet.Use only your ankles to move your feet not the whole of your leg....same reason,you will tire easily.I learned all of this myself without the help of anyone but of course i did some studying like for example i watched videos of my drum idols and studied their techniques.For me,what i consider techniques,more or less, is the ability to hear one's mistakes and correcting it.I would say that it'll take 20 years to get to a professional level of playing and there are no shortcuts.

I started playing at the age of 13 and now i'm 20...that's only 7 years of playing and i would consider myself an intermediate although at every competition i entered or every show i played....i would get comments like "you're unbelievable...you made playing drums looks so easy" or things like "you're good...too good for your age"....of course i feel great but i won't let this comments get over my head.We can hold our head high but we have to keep our nose at a realistic level.

Like what i've been told -> "Things that are worthwhile in life ain't easy doing".
Like what i always tell myself or my friends -> "Life is as tough as it gets but never let it get to your head"
Like what i figured out -> "We are the chess pieces and life's our chess board"
Like what i though would have been right -> "Love is Me and Nisa"
Like what i know is right -> "Love is nothing more than Life"

Tuesday.....

2009-08-25T18:08:00.000+08:00

Nothing much today,had phase test...it was harder than i thought and i think i'm gonna fail.I had Mcdonalds for sahur this morning because i was craving for big breakfast...haha! Well,i got my money...was transferred to me yesterday and now i can either get a PS3,I-Pod touch or a new laptop because the one i'm using now..lets just say i don't fancy it.I was thinking of the new Pearl Demon Drive Double Peddle...the design is cool especially its black beaters...

This is cool because it comes with black and red beaters and its damn light which means i'm able to clock 200 bpm without feeling very tired.

This is the one i have at home...

This is Pearl Eliminator and this comes with different cams...i'm using the red one..its lighter but the above mentioned is much more lighter.

This is the drum set i thought of getting...

its the same model Joey Jordison is using...of course i'm not buying because of him...just that the model is very cool...and it produce a sound so deep...and since the tune i use for my drum set at home is almost the same as George Kollias...with this drum set,it'll sound better.Well..i'm not sure though.haha

Puasa.....Fasting. 23 August-06.33 am

2009-08-23T06:02:00.000+08:00

Yesterday marks the first day of Ramadhan....so technically all the muslims should be fasting but not all will be.Haha.Fasting month....its the time of the month where people will be busy thinking or Hari Raya instead of cleansing themselves of their sins.For me,it is during this month that i will be most quiet and doing alot of reflections since my previous relationship was really a sour one and my life was really damn messy but right now....i can see a change in myself and to tell you the truth...i love it,i'm more reserved...not being rowdy....very calm....i shall say wise though my friends wont agree with me especially Haiqal.haha! Anyways after breaking my fast yesterday....i didnt went for Terawih instead i went to lepak with my buddy Lan. We hung out for 2 hours+ then i went home and catch Final Fantasy Advent Children which i have watched for more than 10 times but never get bored of it.....i love Final Fantasy.

Class test is over and now comes Phase Test....after that will be final year exams on 11th September then attachment for atleast 3 months......and then not sure.haha. The thing i look forward to every day during fasting month is after Terawih....i love how everyone would walk out and chat....and some would hang out for example me...the serenity and calmness i feel during every fasting month is something that i really treasure and look forward to.....i feel it the most after Terawih.

So now i'm all single....doing good and i think by not having a girlfriend...i can be a better person or maybe it just depends on what kinda girlfriend i get.Even though i have broke up with Nisa...i don't blame her for the countless times she failed to be a good girlfriend because i have come to realised that i too may have failed in being a good boyfriend for her.All of the 1 year i spend with her was a great one.I wouldnt it was wasted because for that 1 year of my life....i lived a different life by just adding Nisa to it and no other girls can replace nor give me back that 1 year that Nisa gave and so does it goes to my previous 2 ex-girlfriends before Nisa...no other girls can give what they have gave and for that everyone of'em is special in their own way.

Even though my friends would agree that Nisa seriously is just a screwed up ex-girlfriend....i wouldnt think of her that way nor would i say anything bout her that is negative...i may have said it and i regret it coz now that i have to realised that what she or maybe my future girlfriend may bring....they only bring it once and same goes for everyone in my life.

With that being said....i found no meaning in criticising anyone at all no matter how bad or cruel one may be....it is just not right for me to judge.With that being said,i can now confidently say that i have become a much better person at heart.

Seriously when i think about it,i tried everything i could to make Nisa happy but now i come to understand why i let her go.Her happiness is not with me.Now she's happy with whoever she is...whatever she does...i wish her all the best in life.My Life? to tell you the truth....it rocks!

Day Out

2009-08-22T01:06:00.000+08:00

I went out to shop for my stuff today with my kak sedare....i didnt snap any pics...was lazy to do so...i bought new pair of jeans from Lee coz that's the only brand of jeans i fancy...never liked Levis.....and new shirt and thought of buying blazers but i guess next time....i never had dinner coz i aint hungry but my kak sedare did...went down to Peninsula to buy my jeans then walked to Bugis Street coz she wanted to get a dress and end up buying 2 then dinner at Long Kontol Silver and then bought my shirt and BHG....plain white but kinda cool.Got it at a sale for $20 and then head down to Marina Square for Starbucks...i never fancied Starbucks but since there were no Coffee Bean in sight so Starbucks will have to do.I had cappucino and she had fresh brewed iced green tea....oh her name is Reni.Its been awhile sincce i last saw her so i decided to ask her out...actually was suppose to meet up with a girl named Ana who's 25 years old.Haha...and yes she likes me...and yes she's cute and very pretty...short....and she's a Marketing Executive in an Australian firm...if i aint mistaken.

Anyways i cancelled my date with her coz she told me she was gonna end late.It's weird though...i mean she's 25! haha but life is always weird and that's positively fun! Well,i'm not giving her any hopes coz i wouldnt wanna hurt her in any way coz there's another girl who likes me too...but she's only 18...not pretty but cute and very funny.Keeping my options wide open as i'm not sure i'm ready to have a girlfriend coz i've been thru hell and back for 3 of my ex girlfriends and not sure if i'm ready to dive back into the pits of hell again.....maybe i will but not any time soon and of course i wont be a sucker for love...gonna be firm but nice and polite.

Da masok bulan puasa DOK! haha! I'm not mentally prepared for fasting month but i dont plan on not fasting....i will fast unless of course i fall sick...hopefully i wont.So people..happy fasting!

To my friends,,,,classmates,,,,.bandmates....i love you scumbags!

WWMC....

2009-08-20T00:22:00.000+08:00

Studied for WWMC test with Dayne,Zul,Lan and Hafiz at Mcdonalds near the Tampines CPF building....We reached around 7.30...and then straight away we open up the books..took out our writing materials...and start writing....didnt manage to cover all so i'm gonna study some more tonight...these are the pics that i took when iwe were having our break...we end the whole thing at 11.30 pm.

That's all....nothing much.Have fun sleeping...i need to study.

Of Darkness And Light - 15 August

2009-08-19T11:20:00.000+08:00

Performed with Of Darkness And Light.Fun but too bad none of the photographers took a pic of me playing the drums while standing up.These a re the songs that we played : Through Struggle (As I Lay Dying), Say Goodbye (I Killed The Prom Queen), Rose Of Sharyn(Killswitch Engage), Cold andd Suffer (Of Darkness and Light),Reloaded(Winds Of Plague) and their 1st original which i forgot the title.Kayyum of Dyeth (my bandmate) were the guest vocals.I enjoyed myself pretty much.

Life Is Fun

2009-08-18T20:55:00.001+08:00

True,i totally agree.Of course most would say it sucks and unfair but look at it,by being unfair that it is actually fun because if evrything is easy...we would learn totally nothing...and what's the point of living if there's nothing to learn.

At times i really wish i can take back all of what i did and what i said to people especially when my emotions arent stable,i tend to be fucking harsh and cold which i really dislike but that's the view i get from people.I don't mind cause it's totally fine.When i'm angry...like seriously really angry,i would really hurt someone but i really don't mean it.It's beacuse of my uncontrollable anger i do or say things i don't mean and end up regretting and live with this regret forever but i always do llok on the bright side of life.It really doesn't matter if the whole world thinks i'm pathetic or such an asshole.I just got off Nisa's blog and she said that i'm kaypo,super ego and stalking her,if that's what she think i am....it's fine by me.The reason i would sometimes read up on her is just to know how she's doing and it's good to know she's doing good & i still do keep her link is because strictly due to memories...she was once a part of my life and now everything's over...she turn to a memory...that will always be with me...infact everyone that i've known will always be a memory whether its a good or bad,memories of them will always stay.

I know i'm not the nicest of person anyone have ever met but that doesnt mean that i would erase them...now i'm back on my feet...i can stand once again....i'm doing fine.To me no matter how my life is or turns out to be...i'm always on the positive side...because negative needs to happen for me to be positive...about anything.Life will turn its back on you only because you have turn your back on life....we have to live it...whatever happens...take it in,breathe it in and breathe out a positive effect.

Shit always happens but it's even shittier if you do nothing bout it.

Sentosa

2009-08-13T16:28:00.000+08:00

Although it was just 4 dudes,it was sure fun as hell.

Nothing Much

2009-08-11T11:54:00.000+08:00

I'm not really into celebrating National Day..kinda crappy for me.On Saturday i was suppose to atend my cousin's engagement party but hell, i don't like going for these kinds thing.It's boring and down right bullshit instead i went down to Bugis and meet up with Azhar,Shafiq and Kayyum.We went for a gig at F.A.D Media. It was boring but it sure was better than going to any engagement parties.It beats going to any lame parties coz i got to beat the fuck outta an asshole.haha.That was sure lotta fun.

Dyeth is on a 2 months break but we will be performing on 21st November.The gig is called Dawn Of The Dead 3.These are the performing bands: Dyeth,Nafrat,Saitan,Whore House Butchery,Obscure Phionix,No Rest for The Weary and many more Death/Grindcore/Black Metal bands.For me,I will be performing with Of Darkness & Light,they don't have a drummer so i was called upon.Anyways do come down and support ur local bands and beat the fuck outta each other.Care for no one but you.

What's Wrong?

2009-08-02T16:39:00.000+08:00

I seriously have no idea what's wrong with me or Nisa.We've broken up for at least 2 month now and i really want her off my back.I'm so sick and tired of arguing with her. So Nisa,if you're reading this...tell others whatever you want about me...criticise or whatever,i couldn't be bothered anymore with you and your nonsense. If you wanna tell everyone i'm pathetic..it's ok.I'm fine with it alright...i just want you off my back.So tag all you want...criticise all you want...as long as you're happy being childish.

I don't know

2009-07-30T16:43:00.000+08:00

I aint sure is it me or my ex-gfs, i mean who is the real problem? The first one had to leave me because her dad don't like her to have a boyfriend at that point of time, the second one left me but i aint sure what her reason was....now she's married & the third namely Nisa ...well i left her due to her unable being a proper girlfriend.She's vulgarily abusive not that i cant take it, the thing is she just doesn't respect me & showed no sign of appreciation. I did of course made use a whole lot of girls just for fun, of course when i left them hanging...they were mad but i couldn't be bothered.I know that was mean but i'm a different person now.

Having a girlfriend is great but then not having one is great too. I mean to have one is great cause every guy needs a women's touch & the feeling of it is unexplainable.It's great to have her lean on my shoulder...me pampering her...holding hands...hugging but problems within the relationship will crop up,its unevitable.

Not having meaning i don't have to deal with a girl's nonsensical behaviour and their stupid crying and shouting and assumptions and never ending blame...that suck as i've experienced with my latest ex-gf who all guys should know since she's quite a famous one.

I guess to the girls that i made use of...well, i'm sorry.I was a jerk then.To Nisa, i know i should have explain to you why i left you instead of just slamming down the phone on you.

To anyone i've offended,i'm terribly sorry.I know i was ruthless and cold-hearted.

25th July

2009-07-28T11:44:00.001+08:00

It was such a tiring day as my band had to perform at 2 events which was Extreme Noise Terror,it showcases the best Death/Black/Grindcore bands in Singapore & since my band's genre is Death/Grind,we're on the bill and we gave a hell of show.The crowd were supportive and they headbanged to Dyeth's originals and everyone were snapping away (taking photos).Other bands tht performed on that day were : Obscure Phionix,Eargasm,Nafrat,Thy Fallen Kingdom,Demise,Whore House Butchery & many more.

After that,we went to have early dinner somewhere around Bugis and right after we head to Odiocrib for Sweet & Sweats.Dyeth was the headlining band and form the word headlining,it sounds good...like we're a damn good band but i aint sure though people say so...i'd rather let the people decide.It was pathetic that when my band got on stage to perform...all the crowds have left for home as it was already late but 5 stayed to watch us,even though it was only 5 scums....they made it feel like there were 500 people there and so i would like to thank these 5 souls -Dayne,Azhar,Shafiq,Hidayah and a girl named Lydia (not sure if i get her name right).I admit that over at Extreme Noise Terror,crowds knew my band as we're quite well known in the Death Metal scene but still as long there's support,i appreciate it.

Next gig will be on 21st November (if i aint wrong),we're performing with No Rest For The Weary....

I really need to let go,so God help me alright.I really need help with this.Really need to be strong.

New Chapter In My Life

2009-07-22T15:38:00.000+08:00

Yeah...new chapter.I've broken up with Nisa for 1 month + i think..not really sure.I decided to leave her as that is and always been the best solution.She ain't much of a girlfriend & let alone being a friend.Technically she doesn't have what it takes to be my gf.So she did cry cause she couldnt believe i was heartless & cold...well,i could be all that & more meaning even wicked.Now a great load has been lifted from my shoulder and God i feel very very relieved.No more Nisa means No more dealing with her crap and nonsensical behaviour & of course she will not admit that the cause of the breakup is due to her not being able to be a proper gf although she did get me thru some tough times but it was nothing really,i could have done so myself but since she helped me...i guess she deserve a Thank You...of course nothing more than that as she wasn't really a diamond among the stones to begin with,she's simply a stone that's decorative but nothing more than that.

The last time i met her was few weeks after we broke up...just to get my stuff back from her and she wanted her stuff back to but i've already threw it all away right after the breakup.So after meeting up with her,i went home & she messaged me, i didnt remember what her message was but i remembered clearly a part of my message.I said "Move on & don't be a sore loser",right after she called & said "you're the only dude who could really make me cry".It's a good thing i only made you cry,i could have made you kill yourself or run around naked through your neighbourhood but i'm too kind to do all that to you.

Now life's much better but of course loneliness will set it but nothing i couldn't get through.Dyeth has made alot of progress & i'm happy with it.We've 2 upcoming performance on the same day and a recording session coming up..can't wait! haha.I've got a new side band up & running...so far these are the current members - Lan (drums), Me (Guitars) & Nas Snowfy (Vocals)...still looking for a 2nd Guitarist & bassist.Have yet to come up with a band name.

Well,if you guys are wondering why her picture is still up..that's because i don't know how to get it off....but i will one day.That's all & thank you for reading.

Not forgetting a big old FUCK YOU!
Remember, i only potray what others wanna see,no one knows the real me.

-Single
-Happy
-Kickin' ASS!

Finally ! SOCCER!

2009-05-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

For S&W which also means P.E (in secondary school terms...haha!) me and the scums played soccer...finally! After 2 years of being classmates,we finally played soccer together and Nad is the only girl that played along and she aint bad,i mean i'm amazed that she can play soccer besides my Syg cause i've only seen Syg played soccer and boy was she good for a girl.Anyways we played soccer and i didnt manage to score even a goal despite several attempts shooting the damn ball and Haiqal managed to block the ball.HAd loads of fun & of course all of us complaint that is was a fucking hot day....we can really feel the heat and i ended up with a terrible headache cause i have not eaten for the whole day...no money liao.haha.Well that's all

Bag Catching

2009-05-21T11:13:00.000+08:00

After school...me and the scums (Lan,Hafiz,Nad,Haiqal,Shafiq,Dayne,Zaki,Akmal &Zulfikar..HAHA!) went to chill our asses at a particular block near East Point...so at first when we reached,all of'em sat and just chit-chatting around till 10 minutes later,Nad,Zul,Dayne & Haiqal played poker or any of that sort which i totally have forgotten how to play while me & Lan kid around.After 60 minutes (i think)we all decided to play block catching (may sound childish but its pure fun....!) but still most of us are sitting down doing nothing.....then Dayne,Me,Lan,Haiqal & Nad went over to a nearby playground to just play around and that's when i noticed that our bags are missing except for the bottle for peach tea we bought,so i alerted the rest and they were'nt panicking except for Nad.We went back to the block and Nad actually shouted out "OI! Where's my bag?Bring it to down now you fuckers" That's funny cause Nad CONFIDENTLY shouted out at a block where the asswipes weren't at,they(Zaki,Shafiq,Akmal & Zul) were a few blocks away & soon after Lan went to look for'em and went missing after a few minutes.They rest of us EXCEPT Nad BOTHER searching for the asswipes and it took us quite sometime till a moment later i saw Lan with his bag.He saw me and still can run slowly towards the block where they were hiding with our bags,i ran after Lan after which i saw the rest of the asswipes but the shit thing is i only manage to catch Shafiq & Lan cause they aint fast enough to escape & they were stupid enough cause thay had run but not far and they actually turned back thought they realized i was chasing them from behind.

Well anyways,it was good fun,hope to do it again next week but with our bags on our back.haha

Lately.....

2009-05-13T10:41:00.001+08:00

The recent Sunday,went out with Syg to her friend's engagement function at Admiralty.Picked her up at her house,the took bus service 39....had fun on the bus.Joked around and dropped at Khatib and then boarded the train to Admiralty...the ride didn't take long...soon after we reached Admiralty station.We waited for her bunch of friends at Mcdonalds & while waiting i bought Milo Mcflurry which i shared with Syg and Syg really enjoyed the Mcflurry..haha.Waited around 30 mins and her friends finally showed up and then we walked in the SCORCHING heat from Mcdonads all the way to her friend's block, a journey which took around 15 mins.So finally we reached and i waited for atleast 30 mins for Syg cause she was busy snapping pictures of her with her beloved friends.After the wait, we went for lunch at the block itself...meaning that the function had food prepared! haha..my favourite part but sadly the only food that's damn nice is the curry puff, the rest aint that nice.After the function...we're off to Tampines.We boarded bus 912 to Woodlands Regional Interchange and then boarded bus service 168 to Tampines, during the ride me and Syg slept cause we're pretty beat.Dropped off and head to Tampines 1, went up to Challenger and bought her a brand new ear piece for her I-Touch & then head down to Starbucks cause Syg have been dying for Starbucks, so she ordered Chocolate Cream Chip Venti and i used the voucher which Lan gave me so i got 20% off the drink and then sent her off. Oh..i forgot,before Starbucks...we went to Famous Amos, bought a soft & chewy double chocolate cookie and Syg bought a Mother's Day present for her mum...a big can of cookies.

Dyeth? Well, our vocals left the band and it's very sad for me,Kayyum and Hafiz but we cant stop him from leaving.So now we're auditioning a new batch of vocalist for our upcoming Corefest.That's all.

100th

2009-04-30T11:20:00.000+08:00

This is my 100th post....haha...so I'll try to make this post as interesting...if not..i suck..haha.Ok here goes, Class have been great...I'm actually studying but still i have not forgotten my ways of fooling around and bullying others in class.Lately nothing much happened as my dear dear beloved Syg is very busy with her assesment and i've been hanging out with Lan,Fiz,Zaki & Dzul after school for the past few days, anyways Lan posted a few videos of me,him and our beloved Shariff who now is no longer schooling.The videos were funny as hell....i laughed my ass off watching me bullyin Rong Hui (The nerd in class),my stupid antics with shariff and Lan's histerical laughter...haha.So recently in LT (Lecture Theatre),were having lesson as usual and me & Lan were damn bored....so we cracked a joke or two and end up having all our classmates laughinh their ass off when we disturbed Hafiz and Rong hui.....something gotta do with orgasm and Hafiz pronounced it as ORGANISM....haha.That damn day i laughed till i was outta breath...haha....

I miss my Syg....she's been very busy lately and of course we've been having arguemnts but nothing cant be solve if we really try to....i understand she's very busy.She doesnt really blog much about as i do of her...well not sure why and i couldnt be bothered by it.Well that's all

Busy...Busy..busy

2009-04-28T20:02:00.001+08:00

Syg is very busy with her schoolwork due to her assesment which is around the corner, so i don't mind she taking her own time and not spending time with me,as long as she message me whenever...that's fine.Nothing much have been going on lately for me except studying.Really i got nothing to blog about..haha....well that's all

School Starts.....Gotta Buck Up

2009-04-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

I have to..in order to get better GPA and GRADES....yeah.Its easy..just go to school and study..take down notes....revise...and i have better reason to go to school nowadays.Well....everything else is the same..new teacher, same old classmates, new attitude towards study for me,hafiz and lan......zaki is still kinda ctaching up but he's doin his work finally.....the rest are normal....and suprising shafiq or also knaown as GAY BOY is studyin...haha.I'm looking forward to school everyday...gotta meet those punks and its really fun.

I miss my love.....that's it..tired

This Month's Favourite Videos

2009-04-12T17:13:00.000+08:00

This idiot seems to be out of breath while doing the high pitched growling....real stupid

Another funny video..a women named Valentina Hasan (Bulgarian) singing Mariah Carey's Without You in BROKEN english..enjoy

Now for some serious drumming from George Kollias Of NILE!

The Black Dahlia Murder-Miasma

Lamb Of God new Video

Tenacious D

School Of Rock

Rowley XLT Elite

2009-04-10T17:20:00.000+08:00

Yup...Syg bought that for me.Initially i wanted to buy it own my own with my own money but Syg on the other hand insisted that she wanted to pay for it...Syg told me it's our anniversary present....it'll be our 10th month this coming 13 April....so yeah but the shitthing is i'm schooling on that day and worst thing is...it's the first day fo school....FUCK! Yesterday went out with Syg the whole entire day and had fun...after that we decided to have dinner at Pastamania but too bad for us...it was jam packed with chinese motherfuckers so in the end, we had dinner at Mcdonalds and both had McSpicy Double meal.I wanted to sent Syg off but i had band practice over at Chinatown....actually a studio in Chinatown...and i didn't manage to sent her off.....i feel terrible leaving her all alone...i waited for her bus to come and before syg went off,i kissed her and off i went.I took the train and i was 10 minutes late and Hafiz waited around 15 mins for me at Chinatown MRT station.....i reached,head over to the studio...started jamming and guess what? We completed our brand new original in over 10 minutes...haha! I find that cool,the song is brutal and fast but all that's left is for Is to pen down the lyrics and give the song a title.Well that's all....i had fun the whole damn day yesterday.....and yeah i miss syg alot...always do baby

Good Day

2009-04-09T00:24:00.000+08:00

Yeah...08/04/2009...went out with syg...well....we were supposed to buy my shoes and kinda picked one but end up not buying one coz...we kinda surveyed all kinda skate shoes but still the vans i saw was damn outstanding.It's fucking cool...kinda robotic to me..haha and its on sale! We had lunch at Popeye's...i ate one of the burger meal and syg only had the mashed potatoes and the brownies..the brownies' damn fucking delicious...we went to the Singapore Flyer's Popeyes,then from there we head down to Tampines, Century Square and looked for shoes again...still ended up with nothing...but i had fun with syg....after that...bought Coffee Bean's Double chocolate for syg and i had Black Forest....then head down to my house...collected her guitar which she asked me to fine tune it and then took a cab to sent her home....and i head home...next day working....then meet her to FINALLY buy my shoes and Syg's stuffs.

Dyeth

2009-03-30T15:15:00.000+08:00

Went for band practice yesterday at Chinese Garden...X-Jam Studios....for those who knows the local artiste....the studio belongs to X-Tech..the hard rock band.The studios sucked especially the drums but i have to make do...we covered Lamb Of God's new songs: Set to Fail and Broken Hands and perfected our 1st ever original The Forgotten....we made it much more heavier and now it sounds more crunchy and even more fast paced.Can't wait to thrash out....gig coming up and so is Dyeth's bbq pit but only members allowed...but of course there's an exception for girlfriends.I'm gonna drag Syg along...hoopefully she can stay over and the me and her can make love in the tent..haha! That's all......I miss her so bad!

My Thoughts In Spanish..HAHA....!!!

2009-03-29T16:29:00.000+08:00

Es una bebida Que va cambiando tu vida
Una gotita de nada Te vuelve loca
Loca divertida
Agua de risa Con unas gotas de rosa
Y una aceituna sabrosa
Y en lo caliente Esa es la bomba

Muevete mamita Que me vuelvo loco
Emborrachadita de la bomba estas
Cosa Linda, Cosa Mona Sube, sube que la bomba va

dando media vuelta
otra vuelta mas
y en cada esquina nena dame mas.

Que noche con vida
Intensamente vivida
Te vas quedando colgada
Inofensiva Pura enamorada,

Mira guapa Sale volando la ropa
Sigue bailando la luna
Luna gatuna Esa es la bomba

Haha...

2009-03-28T14:26:00.000+08:00

Well...on the 27th...my brother booked out of camp, so me and my family decided to fetch him and i brought Syg along...she was from school and since she has always wanted to meet my parents..so i brought her and anyways i wanted my parents to know who my gf is...so we waited at Pasir Ris Interchange then he messaged me to ask the rest to wait up at Mcdonalds...so we went there and finally.....he came looking all tanned but didnt grow any taller...i was proud of him...atleast he sounded more mature that he was and that's good.He knows now that life aint all fooling around and that he did regret what he did in the past...and he admits whatever i told/adviced him about is true.We chatted for atleast an hour and suprisingly Syg got a present from my parents that cant be found anywhere in Singapore....a wallet that's hand woven.At first Syg was like...."Ah?! malunye...haha, thank you!". Oh! i just remebered,Syg was all over me...being very cute and sweet..haha, i love it..well we have our moments.So after that we went to Downtown East to have dinner but too bad for my love,she have to split....so i send her off....gave her a good night's kiss then i 'm off to meet my familia.

Nothing Much

2009-03-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

Well...alot of shits have been happening.For once Nisa did something that i never thought she would...people that suck alot! I find it kinda hard not to think about .....really hard.It's all very disturbing and irritating at the same time....i really don't know what to say and i really wanna give up...seriously but...nevermind.Just once.....a one time thing she did,now makes me so fucking angry....i have had enough! For her mistakes,she made up alll lame excuses and reasons which i believe is total BULLSHIT! I have these broken hands which i can even use to pick the pieces of trust which she broke.....all those promises...all those bloody sweet satuff she said to me now means nothing..NOTHING. I don't feel a shit.Enough bout her.

Dyeth is having a gig on 11th April at F.A.D studios and we're invited for Corefest and Metalfest i think...means we're getting paid..HAHA!.....so have to get back in the studio to start practicing...so FUCK YEAH!

2009-03-16T12:25:00.000+08:00

Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Untill I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I'm so ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of me

Anyways...recording for Jigsaw is yet to be done..only the guitar tracks are complete.Well, i had so much fun wakeboarding on Sunday for 3 hours...tiring but worth it.I went alone and hey! It ain't bad doing something alone.....i cant wait to get back in the studio to finish off Jigsaw and Saxon then can continue with the band's next song.Dyeth will be performing on 11th April but venue is yet to be confirm.....same goes to the time.Can't wait to shove the metal up everybody's ass.

I guess now everything's worked up fine but not really sure of it though...I'm still not stable as in my mind is not calm....a lot of things are going through my mind at the moment and it gives me one BIG fucking headache.I really would want my wish to come true...seriously but not gonna tell what i wished for.Fuck it! Well.....i can't wait to go wakeboarding and rock climbing again....its fucking fun and tiring and a real stress relieve besides drumming...haha...and i wanna shoot some paint balls up someone's ass....not bad doing these stuffs alone....gotta mix around with other dudes....gain something and help me relax....i'm fucking tired and its raining...so nothing beats sitting at home on a rainy day, watching DVDs and a cup of hot chocolate.

It Is What It Is

2009-03-11T16:59:00.000+08:00

Well....it's been quite awhile and i see i have a few hate taggers but that doesn't bother me...anyways things are complicated now...me and Syg are on a time-off and she can take how long she wants..as long as things clears up and there's fresh air to breathe...it's fine. Today marks the last paper i have to sit for Wireless Technology...doesn't mean i'm graduating....it just means i'm goin on to 2nd year and for my elective subject...i took HP Unix..again! Well,i thought of changing to XP-OS due to some reason...i can't state here.Well....now i just have to bear with Unix ...no big deal anyways....i now ...i don't know how to put it...ermmm....let's see....forget it....that's all.

Screwed Up Big Time!

2009-03-01T10:00:00.000+08:00

Yeah...i did.On my previous enrty...i compared my previous band with my current band ...little did i know that Exogenous would read my blog and they were upset but..wait! My blog,My rights right? Means i'm subjected to what and who i wanna blog about as long as in ain't being racist nor dissing other's religions....other than that..it's fine.So,Din(member of Exogenous) called me up asking am i not happy with them and i said...i have no problems with you guys...just that it's my blog,my rights so you should't feel offended and even if you're...just get over it...once again i stress out to you guys..my BLOG,my RIGHTS.So they weren't happy and ket asking me waht was my reason for doing so and i told them...i just wanna blog bout it and outta my own will just to convince Syg that i ain't holding myself back to Exogenous which i am...and they called Syg ..sorted everything out..they apologized and after a few minutes,Syg called me up and wanted to know what happened and i explained to her and Syg thought that i used her named to save my ass...but no! i didn't...Exogenous missinterpreted what i said to them...so yeah...then followed by a big arguement between me and Syg and i really felt so lost...all i could think of is i wanna be left alone for a awhile..maybe for a few weeks but i know that i couldn't gt myself not to think of Syg nor meet her...i was missing her so much..haiz.

At times i ask myself that do i have to screw up every now and then? Or is it someone's else mistakes that i have to pay for? I have no freaking idea but here goes....I apologize to Exogenous and I apologize to Syg...

NO idea for tittle

2009-02-25T18:38:00.000+08:00

Well....i don't really have anything to blog about...kinda bored these days...did my Phase Test and it wasn't as hard as i predicted ...so i kinda pull it off.....anyways...here's a video of my previous band Exogenous perfroming at Youth Park for the Singapore Band Challenge....

It's due to this performance that Exogenous got the interview from LIVE! Magazine and for your info,bands that LIVE! Magazine interviewed and release it on the magazine...it means the band is fucking good but in this case for Exogenous i seriously think that when i was with the band,it was good and now i'm outta of it,it ain't as good as before.I heard their 1st ever original up on Myspace(www.myspace.com/exogenous) which was also composed by me,well...it totally suck! The drums especially and the vocals ain't as good.

Dyeth on the other hand are much better than Exogenous..in every aspect.For me,they're much more fun to work with.We still have a long way to go though still i think we can be successful...it doesn't matter what people say.I don't give a fuck.Here's a video of Dyeth's live performance

The Forgotten

This song 'The Forgotten' have been scraped off our originals list due to it's not being heavy and it's too typical.